The last gift is also your first gift.

我最近失去了一個曾經如影相隨的朋友
到了現在，要我說明到底發生了什麼，去形容這整件事情的一切跟一切
我目前還完全辦不到
我想試著去利用一些東西悼念過去很好的這段感情，
只希望他不會覺得過於矯情，至少我還是來的及

這件事情多少剝奪了我一些靈魂上的分子
神經衰竭，我比誰都還要狠不下心我發現這個世界上的事情，不是只有黑當然也不是只有白
那個灰色的地帶，說實在的，我待的不習慣
太過於專注自己的思想，堅持那所謂的自我
幾經波折之後一時的轉換，我學到了人情事故最後應該了解的是進退
其實，在心智動搖的那段日子
不斷的祈求上父能夠聖靈充滿
我，最後得到了救贖，上父還是給了你力量站起來，榮耀歸於主
祂讓我能夠知道我要的是什麼，我想的是什麼，
不再因為那廉價的同情卻又不甘心施捨的漩渦裡惡性循環著痛苦
最後，我們始終都還是在那過去的回憶裡找到出路，但願從此的路你我都別再迷惘


Goodbye My Lover　by James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.