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Artist: Darren Hayes
Song: California


I got a cottage with a sea view
I got a regular summer tan
I’ve been working up the courage to call you all year, ohhh
There is nothing I can say
There are no good words left anyway
Besides people are cruel
And the world still moves without you, ohhh


Welcome to my Californian home
You don’t have to call me you can leave when you want
There’s a picture by my bed
There’s a light in your eyes
I don’t know
Well I don’t know
Why you still feel alone


And we were dying from the get go
I was dreaming but you never believed
I was trying to fit myself in the spaces between, ohhh
And you were kind and sometimes cruel
You said all the world’s love couldn’t satisfy you
And nothing could have hurt me as much as the truth
Ohhh darling


Welcome to my Californian home
You don’t have to call me you can leave when you want
There’s a picture by my bed
There’s a light in your eyes
I don’t know
Tell me ‘cause I want to find out
Do you still feel alone?


Love is elusive when you search for it
Don’t I know
Happiness sometimes it just creeps in
Don’t I know
I’m going crazy
I’ve been wondering
Do you still feel alone?


I need to find
Some kind of peace of mind
I need to find


I got a cottage with a sea view
I got a regular summer tan
I know that I deserve more
But I still want you


Welcome to my Californian home
You don’t have to call me you can leave when you want
There’s a picture by my bed
There’s a light in your eyes
I don’t know
Tell me ‘cause I want to find out
Do you still feel?


Welcome to my California
(I need to find)
Even though I’m no good for you
(Some kind of peace of mind)
There’s a part of me still waiting for you
(I need to find)
Welcome to my happy ending
(I need to find)
Even though it’s fun contending
(Some kind of peace of mind)
I know
I know you can’t look back, you can never go back


Welcome to my Californian home
You can never go back
Welcome to my Californian home
I know
You can never go back
Welcome to my Californian home
I know
You can never go back
I know I need to find, do you still feel?


Welcome to my Californian home
(I need to find)
Even though I’m no good for you
(Some kind of peace of mind)
Deep inside there’s a piece of me, there’s a piece of me
Still waiting for you to come home
Welcome to my Californian home
(I need to find)
I know you can never look back, you can never look back again
(Some kind of peace of mind)
But tell me ‘cause I want to find out
Do you still feel alone?
Oh nooo
Do you still feel alone?
Oh nooo




02:13 AM July 9th 2006　-Note
我做了一個開場白，
以為可以打破內心已久的沉默。
我握有妳所有進化的過程還有證據，
妳有權保持緘默。


我封鎖自己來者不拒的思唯，
因為我想讓自己往後的日子都能比較好過活。


你離不開那憂鬱的大海，
始終不願擱淺在這寂寥的沙灘。
你就像是一隻鯨魚，沒有你的辦法。
擱淺就代表著愛情的死亡。
我對著空氣詢問著成千上百個，
但卻也千篇一律的問題，
我為誰解釋著：「沒有什麼事情可以勉強的來。」
：「我是一隻鯨魚」，你給我的答案。

獨白，
空氣是冷的，
也是無色、無味的。
但是是 冷 的。





最接於真實的東西，越叫人接近死亡。
-都是來自遙遠靈魂的喚應。
對於女人來說，
每一瞬間，都是小小的死亡。
女人藉由愛情接受每個瞬間的死亡並一再重生；
男人只能橫衝直撞跑完僅有一次的人生。
男人不可能用唯一的愛來愛這世界上的一切，
男人永遠無法擁有女人獨有的愛的本質。






即便是冷酷異境，
我也得繼續存在。


500頁的小說結束了。
我沒有哭。










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And we were dying from the get go
I was dreaming but you never believed
I was trying to fit myself in the spaces between, ohhh
And you were kind and sometimes cruel
You said all the world’s love couldn’t satisfy you
And nothing could have hurt me as much as the truth
Ohhh darling


I need to find
Some kind of peace of mind
I need to find